Old Post - Year of the Panda

I haven't written in a while, and I have no real exuse but that everything just kept on colapsing. The reacent holidays did me alot of good. But then again this is a kind of a practice before I move. To day I spent time tidying and cleaning. And I will spend a great deal more I can reassure you. Right now the walls of my room look bare. It seemed to have lost the coziness it possesed before (it being the room, naturally). It lost it's homy feeling as well, but then again if I avoid looking at the walls it's not so bad.
Now according to the chiniase year callender - thingy- this is the year of the rat, or a mouse - a vermin in any case - but for me it is going to be the year of the Panda. Now while your drawing the obvios conclutions I would like to share my reasenings behind that decition. I was sitting on my bed - as I often do due to the lack of a un-cluttered chair - and... I don't remember what I was doing and...well I was contemplating some things and I laid my hand on a beine baby Koala Bear. Which I don't remember buying. And from then on it's just clicked.
This year, is going to be one of the first major challenges in my life. You may wonder 'thet haven't I've been through this before?' I suppose in a way I have, but in many other I haven't. When I moved to germany it was my first year in my russian year as well. When I moved to England, well I can plead youthful ingnorance. I didn't over think thigs then. And I wasn't leaving much -well I was but not in the amount of people - people behind, just my family. And now I gained a totally different family. I know that with some I'll lose them as soon as I leave thier sight. For everytime I was off ill that happened. With others I'll keep in breif touch and yet if - no, when - I'll met them, again there would be no problem what so ever to return to where we left of. With some the realationship beteween us will change but no nessesaraly for the worst.
Back to the Koala Bear, he's my mascot of sorts for this year.And now I run out of things to say, amazingly. I also may have to find a different webhost for my webpage as I'm having trouble to acsees this one properly from my Mac.